We are always tested by Him..

I am me,
I am not perfect,
But I will never give up trying to improve myself,
No matter what happens I don't just give up easily,
Cos I know there's just so much more to life.

One door closes and another opens,
That's what I have learned,
Going through pain is not easy,
But in the end I will figure out myself that all those pain I endure will gain me something,

But now decisions have to be made,
And I wouldn't really be bothered so much if it involves me alone,
But this is for a lot more people whom I love ,
I need strength,
Yes I do,
And I know Allah is always with me.

=)

KITA BERTANYA: KENAPA AKU DIUJI?QURAN MENJAWAB
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan,"Kami telah beriman."("I am full of faith to Allah")sedangkan mereka tidak diuji?Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KITA BERTANYA: KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?QURAN MENJAWAB
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KITA BERTANYA: KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?QURAN MENJAWAB"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya,"-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

KITA BERTANYA: KENAPA RASA FRUST?QURAN MENJAWAB"
Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah. dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati,padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."-Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

KITA BERTANYA: BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?QURAN MENJAWAB
"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembhyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk."-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

KITA BERTANYA: APA YANG AKU DAPAT DARIPADA SEMUA INI?QURAN MENJAWAB
"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu'min,diri,harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka... ?-Surah At-Taubat ayat 111

KITA BERTANYA: KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?QURAN MENJAWAB
'Cukuplah Allah bagiku,tidak ada Tuhan selain dariNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."-Surah At-Taubat ayat 129

KITA BERKATA: AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!!!!!QURAN MENJAWAB"
......dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir."-Surah Yusuf ayat 12

Seorang lelaki =) (from iluvislam.com)

Jadilah seorang lelaki yang beriman,
Yang hatinya disalut rasa taqwa kepada Allah,
Yang jiwanya penuh penghayatan terhadap Islam,
Yang sentiasa haus dengan ilmu,
Yang sentiasa dahaga akan pahala,
Yang solatnya adalah maruah dirinya,
Yang tidak pernah takut untuk berkata benar,
Yang tidak pernah gentar untuk melawan nafsu,
Yang sentiasa bersama kumpulan orang-orang yang berjuang di jalan Allah.

Jadilah seorang lelaki,
Yang menjaga tutur katanya,
Yang tidak bermegah dengan ilmu yang dimilikinya,
Yang tidak bermegah dengan harta dunia yang dicarinya,
Yang sentiasa berbuat kebajikan kerana sifatnya yang penyayang,
Yang mempunyai ramai kawan dan tidak mempunyai musuh yang bersifat jembalang.

Jadilah seorang lelaki,
Yang menghormati ibu bapanya,
Yang sentiasa berbakti kepada orang tua dan keluarga,
Yang bakal menjaga kerukunan rumahtangga,
Yang akan mendidik isteri dan anak-anak mendalami Islam,
Yang mengamalkan hidup penuh kesederhanaan,
Kerana dunia baginya adalah rumah sementara menuju akhirat.

Jadilah seorang lelaki,
Yang sentiasa bersedia untuk menjadi imam,
Yang hidup di bawah naungan al-Quran dan mencontohi sifat-sifat Rasulullah,
Yang boleh diajak berbincang dan berbicara,
Yang menjaga matanya dari berbelanja,
Yang sujudnya penuh kesyukuran dengan rahmat Allah ke atasnya.

Jadilah seorang lelaki,
Yang tidak pernah membazirkan masa,
Matanya kepenatan kerana membaca al- Quran,
Suaranya lesu kerana penat berzikir,
Tidurnya lena dengan cahaya keimanan,
Bangunnya Subuh penuh kecergasan,
Kerana sehari lagi usianya bertambah kematangan.

Jadilah seorang lelaki,
Yang sentiasa mengingati mati,
Yang baginya hidup di dunia adalah ladang akhirat,
Yang mana buah kehidupan itu perlu dibaja dan dijaga,
Agar berputik tunas yang bakal menjaga baka yang baik,
Meneruskan perjuangan Islam sebelum hari kemudian.

Jadilah seorang lelaki,
Yang tidak terpesona dengan buaian dunia,
Kerana dia mengimpikan syurga Allah.

Kemanisan Iman =)

Dari anas r.a. dari Rasulullah SAW sabdanya:

Ada 3 perkara, barangsiapa yang 3 perkara itu ada dalam dirinya,
maka orang itu dapat merasakan betapa manisnya iman:

1) Jikalau Allah dan Rasul lebih dicintai dari yang selain keduanya;

2) Jikalau seseorang itu mencintai orang lain dan tidak ada sebab kecintaannya itu melainkan kerana Allah;

3) dan jikalau seseorang itu benci untuk kembali kepada kefakiran setelah diselamatkan Allah dari kekafiran itu, sebagaimana bencinya ia kalau dilemparkan ke dalam api neraka.

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Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda yang bermaksud:”Bukankah aku telah memberitahu kamu semua tentang orang yang diharamkan masuk ke neraka atau orang yang diharamkan ke atasnya neraka?

Mereka ialah orang yang berdamping rapat dengan orang ramai (baik pergaulannya), hatinya tenang, berlemah lembut serta mudah dibawa berunding.”

Change...

People change,
Yes they do..
Infact we all change,
All the time,
But I just hope changes that I make is only for the better.

Sometimes my heart feels pain,
I feel hurt,
But that's part and parcel in life,
That I will have to bear wisely.

Infact, there's no lurve without sacrifices.

I seriously think the world needs more love.
And I think patience is somehow being undervalued.
As I've mentioned before,
I like smiling people,
I like cheerful people,
I like wise people,
I like patient people,
I like sparkling eyes,
But those eyes don't sparkle anymore.

I lurve Nazmi =)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha =)

'Daripada Zaid bin Arqam, dia berkata: Suatu hari sahabat Rasulullah s.a.w. bertanya: "Wahai Rasulullah, apakah yang ada pada korban itu?''
Jawab Rasulullah: "Ia adalah sunah bapa kamu, Ibrahim.''
Mereka berkata: "Apa yang akan kami peroleh daripadanya wahai Rasulullah?'' Rasulullah menjawab: "Bagi setiap helai rambut ada kebajikannya.''
Mereka berkata: "Bagaimana pula dengan bulunya wahai Rasulullah?''
Rasulullah s.a.w. menjawab: "Bagi setiap helai bulu ada kebajikannya.'' (Riwayat Ahmad, Ibnu Majah dan Tirmizi)'

Bulan Zulhijjah merupakan bulan yang tersimpan pelbagai pengajaran bagi seluruh umat Islam selain daripada bulan yang dijanjikan pelbagai nikmat dari sisiNya.
Maka tidak dapat lagi kita lari dari berbicara mengenai peristiwa pengorbanan Nabi Ibrahim dan Nabi Ismail yang membawa kepada apa yang dijadikan sebagai ibadat korban yang ditetapkan oleh Allah swt.
Allah swt telah menceritakan di dalam al-quran mengenai dua makhluk yang amat dekat di sisiNya ini yang bermaksud:'Maka ketika anaknya itu sampai (ke peringkat umur yang membolehkan dia) berusaha bersama-sama dengannya,
Nabi Ibrahim berkata: Wahai anak kesayanganku! Sesungguhnya aku melihat dalam mimpi bahawa aku akan menyembelihmu; maka fikirkanlah apa pendapatmu?.
Anaknya menjawab: Wahai ayah, jalankanlah apa yang diperintahkan kepadamu;
Insya Allah, ayah akan mendapati daku dari orang-orang yang sabar.Setelah keduanya berserah bulat-bulat (menjunjung perintah Allah itu) dan Nabi Ibrahim merebahkan anaknya dengan meletakkan iringan mukanya di atas tompok tanah, (Kami sifatkan Ibrahim dengan kesungguhan azamnya itu telah menjalankan perintah Kami),' (As-Saaffat:102-103)

Maha Suci Tuhan, menciptakan dua susuk tubuh yang amat akur pada perintah seorang Pencipta. Betapa sukarnya Nabi Ibrahim untuk bertemu semula dengan anaknya yang ditinggalkan sejak dari kecil,dan setelah bertemu diminta pula untuk dikorbankan.
Namun,cinta Allah lebih agung dari segalanya,disuarakan jua riwayat mimpi kepada si anak kecil yang masih belum kenal pada dunia, tetapi telah mengenal erti cinta.
Cinta seorang hamba kepada Tuannya.
Dua susuk tubuh ini sama-sama IKHLAS berKORBAN demi CINTA kepada Allah swt.
Betapa lemahnya langkah Nabi Ibrahim ketika itu kerana tahu nasib yang akan menimpa Nabi Ismail,anak kesayangannya.
Dan Allah swt tidak pernah lekang walau sesaat menghitung rintih hiba hambaNya ini,apatah lagi untuk menzalimi hambanya yang beriman yang akhirnya DIA mengurniakan rahmatNya:'Dan Kami tebus anaknya itu dengan seekor binatang sembelihan yang besar;Dan Kami kekalkan baginya (nama yang harum) dalam kalangan orang-orang yang datang kemudian: ' (As-Saaffat:107-108)

Sahabat,ini merupakan kekasih Allah yang diuji sebegini rupa, bagaimana pula dengan diri kita? Cubaan dan dugaan yang dihadapi setiap hari kehidupan tidak ternilai berbanding mereka.
Namun masih kita mudah berkeluh kesah dan lupa akan nikmat pemberianNya. Layakkah kita ke syurga berbekalkan mahar yang dibawa?
Cinta Nabi Ibrahim kepada Sang Pencipta mengorbankan si anak yang sangat dikasihinya,
Cinta Nabi Ismail menundukkan jiwa seorang bapa untuk redha pada ketentuan dariNya,
Bagaimana pula dengan cinta kita?
Mampukah kita mengorbankan segala harta dan masa
Apatah lagi jika yang menjadi taruhan adalah nyawa
Sungguh, kita umat akhir zaman yang lalai dengan dunia
Sehingga lupa kepada cinta kepada Pencipta
Masa dibazirkan dengan berhibur dan duduk bersahaja
Harta menjadi aset untuk berlumba siapa yang lagi kaya
Bila ditanya bila nak bertaubat,jawabnya bersahaja
Tunggu nanti bila meningkat tua
Sia-sia lah separuh usia amanah dari Yang Esa.
Marilah sama-sama kita bermuhasabah, telah cukupkah pengorbanan kita kepada agama ini sepertimana pengorbanan Nabi Ibrahim dan Nabi Ismail,
kerana sejarah telah membuktikan, tiada cinta tanpa pengorbanan!

Title: tiada Cinta Tanpa Pengorbanan (iluvislam.com)

=)

Takutlah kamu semua kepada Allah, mengenai wanita (isteri) kerana kamu telah mengambil mereka dengan amanah Allah [Hadith riwayat Muslim]

found at yussamir.com =D

Paradigma:Allah dan analogi (found at yussamir.com) =D

“Kenapa Allah tidak menunjukkan diri-Nya sendiri kepada kita?
Selain itu, jika Dia Maha Berkuasa, sudah pasti Dia boleh buat apa sahaja.
Paling mudah Dia boleh angkat sebiji batu kemudian tunjukkan kepada kita.” Tanya Kassiah.
Saya mengambil sebatang pen, kemudian menyerahkannya kepada Kassiah. “Ambil ini, jawapannya ada di sini.”
“Er.. Jangan main-main.”“Siapa kata nak main-main.” Kassiah memusing-musingkan pen berwarna merah di tangannya.
“Cuba kau terangkan pada aku.” Suara Kassiah agak tegang.
“Jangan marah.” Saya mengambil pen tadi kemudian senyum kepadanya.
“Persoalan kau ada dua jawapan yang boleh aku beri.
Pertama berkenaan dengan mengapa Allah tidak menunjukkan diri-Nya kepada kita.
Sebelum kau sudah ada orang yang tanyakan hal ini.
Malahan pertanyaan orang ini dijawab sendiri oleh Allah.”
Kassiah memandang hairan.

“Orang tersebut ialah Nabi Musa. Dalam surah al-A’araf ayat 143 Allah berfirman,
“Dan tatkala Musa datang untuk (munajat dengan Kami) pada waktu yang telah Kami tentukan dan Tuhan telah berfirman (langsung) kepadanya, berkatalah Musa: "Ya Tuhanku, nampakkanlah (diri Engkau) kepadaku agar aku dapat melihat kepada Engkau."
Tuhan berfirman: "Kamu sekali-kali tidak sanggup melihat-Ku, tapi lihatlah ke bukit itu, maka jika ia tetap di tempatnya (sebagai sediakala) niscaya kamu dapat melihat-Ku.
" Tatkala Tuhannya menampakkan diri kepada gunung itu[565], dijadikannya gunung itu hancur luluh dan Musa pun jatuh pingsan.
Maka setelah Musa sadar kembali, dia berkata: "Maha Suci Engkau, aku bertaubat kepada Engkau dan aku orang yang pertama-tama beriman.

”“Untuk lebih kau faham, aku bagi kau satu analogi.
Bayangkan aku yang cipta pen merah ini. Kemudian, bila pen ini sudah siap, bolehkah pen ini melihat aku?” Tanya saya.
“Memang takkan nampak.”
“Betul, sebab aku cipta pen itu tanpa deria yang boleh melihat aku sebagai penciptanya.
Begitu jugalah dengan Allah, Dia menciptakan kita tanpa deria yang membolehkan kita melihat-Nya.
Allah boleh melihat kita, tetapi kita dan sekelian ciptaan-Nya tidak akan dapat melihat-Nya.” Kassiah mengangguk-angguk tanda setuju.

“Untuk persoalan kedua pula?” Tanya Kassiah
“Untuk persoalan kedua, aku suka bagi analogi “Manager dan Cleaner”.
Bayangkanlah kau seorang Manager di sebuah syarikat.
Semasa kau masuk ke bilik air syarikat, punyalah terkejut, bilik air sangat kotor.
Dalam masa yang sama ada seorang cleaner sedang melepak. Adakah kau akan membersihkan tandas itu atau cleaner tersebut?”
“Mestilah aku akan suruh cleaner tersebut.”“kenapa pula?” Saya provokasi.
“Sebab takkanlah aku pula yang kena basuh bilik air itu, sedangkan cleaner ada.”
“Tapi kau mampu buat kan?”
“Memanglah mampu, tapi itu bukan kerja aku dan tak layaklah aku sebagai manager kena buat kerja cleaner.”
“Ha.. Macam itulah Allah.

Dia mampu untuk melakukan segalanya tanpa ada sebarang halangan.
Tetapi untuk mengangkat batu dan menunjukkan kepada para hamba-Nya bukanlah sesuatu yang layak dan patut untuk Allah lakukan.
Kerana dia Maha Agung, dan Maha Berkuasa.
”Terang saya pada Kassiah.

Bagi saya modal analogi yang kena dengan logik, lagi memudahkan seseorang itu memahami dan menerima sesuatu jawapan.
Memahami konsep ketuhanan dan kekuasaan-Nya bukanlah sesuatu yang sukar dan memeningkan.
Keimanan kepada Islam bukanlah sebuah keyakinan yang membabi buta tanpa jawapan yang releven dan logik.
Islam sentiasa menyediakan setiap persoalan yang bermain di kepada manusia.
Maha Suci Allah yang menciptakan segalanya.

“Katakanlah: "Segala puji bagi Allah, Dia akan memperlihatkan kepadamu tanda-tanda kebesaran-Nya, maka kamu akan mengetahuinya. Dan Tuhanmu tiada lalai dari apa yang kamu kerjakan.” (Surah an-Naml 27:93)

Meaningful =) found this at iluvislam.com =D

Adakalanya....
Hari yang panas dan ceria
Bertukar mendung seketika
Mentari merangkak pergi
Gumpalan awan bertandang sisi
Hati gundah
Tercari-cari
ke Mana perginya mentari yang dinanti
Begitulah hidup...

Di saat kau selesa dengan kehidupan
tiba-tiba kau diuji dengan kehilangan
kehilangan nikmat harta
kehilangan nikmat ilmu
kehilangan nikmat rakan dan keluarga
dan kau meratapinya....

Bila kau memandang segalanya dari Tuhanmu...
Yang menciptakan segalanya
yang menimpakan ujian
yang menjadikan sakit hatimu
yang membuatkan keinginanmu terhalang
serta menyusahkan hidupmu
pasti akan damailah hatimu kerna...
takkan Allah sengaja mentakdirkan segalanya untuk sesuatu yang sia-sia
Bukan Allah tak tahu derita hidupmu...
retaknya hatimu
sengsaranya sukmamu

Mungkin itulah yang Dia mahukan
kerna Dia tahu
Hati yang sebeginilah
selalunya lebih lunak dan mudah untuk DEKAT dan AKRAB dengan-Nya
Saat hujan turun membasahi hatimu
kau menangis
kerna merasa beratnya ujian tidak tergalas
~SenYumLaH~

kerna Allah mendatangkan kepadamu pelangi nan indah selapas hujan sirna kelamnya'
Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.
Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya'
(Al-Baqarah:284)

My exam ended today! =D

ok, my exam was... hurm... was an exam. hehe..i wanna have clear pass for all those papers! i do! i really dooo!!! and the osce too!! now all I can do is to pray to Allah =)

and this means.... my dress up mode is activated! and i have plans to be creatttiiivvveee too! just wait and see.. im planning to make dresses myself using floral fabric, laces and ribbons! =D
how wonderful is that? just wait and see. im excited! sooo excited! later im going to the shop and start hunting for those super sweet facric like candy =p, lots of pink shades of laces and ribbons =D ok well, i will give some space for other colours to join in too=p

i lurve lurve to explore my creativity =D i think i have quite exposed my eyes to alot of human body parts and organs pics these past few days.. now im gonna let my eyes to be pampered with floral, lacey, ribbony? =p stuff.. yay yay yay!

to all my friends out there, just to let u know, i lurve youuuuu =D
if u see any cat meow-ing, just imagine that's me saying hello =p

we don't get to see the light often.and when we do,appreciate it.

I dont wanna be a kind of person who only really think of Him when I have problems .
I dont want to only think of Him when Im down.
I want to always think of Him.
I want to thank Him first whenever I feel joy.
I want to always think of Him first when I wake up in the morning.
I want to think of him first before I close my eyes at night to sleep.

I need to improve my self, A lot.
It's not often to be able to feel how great He is just by looking how wonderful the sky is, how peaceful it feels when it rains...
And how He helps me in times when I need most.
But I make a lot of mistakes.
Over and over.
Again and again.
But I just hope I will always have His guidance.
Every time.
Every moment,
In my life.

*God would give test to His slaves that He loves*

I found the sentence above and I feel somehow relieved =)

dum dum dum

okay, here i am.. in the library, on friday evening. it's quite empty u noe?
i am supposed to study!! but look at me.. wastingmyown sweet time.
owh nana nana nana... please start changing urself into a real angel.
as u can see, i dont really play dress up nowadays. waaaaa...
im sure there's a reason for everything that happens =)
i may have lead my differently, worse?better? if i was destined to be at another place..
u noe that kinda feeling?
but then i do think i belong to where i belong,
every stage of our life there will be challenges and difficulties,
so that we'll grow up and become wiser,
i like wise people,
i like cheerful people,
i like people who appreciate for every small thing they have,
i like people with sparkling eyes,
haha.. u know, that kind of eyes that kinda spark =p
well, it's subjective..some people may see the spark, and some don't,
haha.. i hope i do have some type of sparkling eyes eventho i have sepet eyes =p

i can do it! i can do it! i can do it!
i am nanananananana!!!!
i keep on meow-ing and purr-ing eventho the world ROARs at me =P
yeap, im that girl!
haha=p

nak nangessss ;(

saya rasa sangat sedih ;(
saya rasa nak nangesss ;(
saya rasa mcm lonely, eventho macam tak ;(
saya sebenarnya selalu takut2, ;(
saya takut kat bende yang orang lain macam tak tau pon yang saya sebenarnye takowt ;(
sebenarnye saya memang selalu takowt ;(
saya bukan seorang yang kuat sebenarnye ;(
..........

I guess the inner me who always keeps me going is my childishness =)

being me, i noe that im not always serious,
that i cannot survive without thinking that 'it's no big deal, i can do it!',
hee... but then again, some things in life are quite complex and those are the things that make me really think using my brain =p lol..
i'm always amazed by something that sometimes others dont regard them as amazing enough..haha..
i like art, i mean like craft, cooking and drawing butterflies..lol..
owh owh owh, i super lurve flowers!! i think flowers are very delicate, and they only bloom if they are healthy enough(like enough water, sunlight n others), and they are colourful,
they are like the moon and stars in the sky at night,
i wanna be like flowers, like stars n moon, and butterflies..
like a burning candle in the midst of darkness,
i want to be that light =)

i just can't think straight when there's so much things to do =<

ok, lemme list a few eeww things im doing currently

i am skipping the 1 hour lecture cos i wanna prepare for my anatomy practical.. hoping i can finish it and go at 3 oclock for the practical..
then, i realised... i neeedd soooo muchhhh morrreee timeeeee to actually understand what the book is sayingggggggggggggggg.......
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......................... i dont understand a thing!!!
i refuse to do anything.
i want to sit here.
and do nothing.
let's see whether i'm turning into an angel or a devil in these few seconds.
i have no mood to do anything.
i need more time.
i mean it.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....................

pls pls pls lemme become a responsible student ;(
i dont know why but i just feel like running awaaayyyy when i feel suffocateddddddddd...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......

bla bla bla

i like jiwang songs.
i like songs that can make u reflect on what happened in the past, all those sweet and happy memories.
i dont like songs that will make me feel like banging my head on the wall, like those hard metal songs and such..hehe...its just my preference..not against those kinda songs.
but those jiwang or emo kinda songs are not easy to find, and i have not been singing for such a looong time.
hmm.. i should sing.
at least i noe im still chirping like a free flying bird.
lol.
im weird.
like u didnt noe.
bluek!

overshadowed

they are not small things. every small thing can make a difference. it may seem small, but still shudnt be forgotten. and its not a small thing in the first place. maybe they're just cathegorised under the 'small things' . it takes courage to accept things that you dont think you can. and sometimes, we just know even without being told about it.

and i hate histology.

Alhamdulillah.. =)

I am happy that I always have His guide whenever I'm starting to forget to get close to Him =)

broken

if it's equal, then how special am i to u?

Im backkkkkkkkk.....

It's odd, but i usually think of my blog only when i dont feel so good.haha.. my past few weeks were great cos i had to spend them with my lurvely twin, jaju... i had a lot of pics taken with her..haha...hmm...talking about my current feelings..somehow when ure soo attached to sumthin, it tends to affect u more..such as... erm.. if u dont rili care of that sumthin, u wudnt rili feel hurt rite? cos u dont rili bother about it to begin with..but when u actually care about it, it kinda hurts u alot rite? hmm.. i dont know.. its just my opinion. lol.

sometimes i wonder weder im too sensitive or emo to be sad about sumthin.. but then again, maybe u are.. or maybe ure not.. i mean.. maybe it IS normal to feel that way.. sometimes people just think differently.. and if those differences are being used in a good way, it could unite them..or break them apart ,otherwise...lol.. Im kinda confused and my brain is kinda cloudy and im starting not to understand about everything. So i guess i'd better shut up.

Here are some pics with my twin:

i don't get it

why is it so hard for me to detach myself from the stuff that can only hurt me, that i shudnt even bother to think about?
why does it take a whole lot more to convince me nowadays?
why do i have so many doubts about it?
why do i find things which were fine before, but becoming odd and weird nowadays?
why do i feel i dont understand about it enough yet to conclude anything out of it yet?
why do i feel this way?
things dont become as how they are overnight. it takes a whole lot more time.

is the situation really changing? or is it me that is changing?

dress upp again! =D

I'm all up to play dress up again! =D wohoo.. hmm.. hols are great, but with the presence of some people that u have soo much fun with, will be even more FUN! hehe.. my twin sis coming back on friday morning. =) lurve jaja! my nazmi coming back in august, but my hols will end by then =( hehe.. i have made a promis eto myself to stop shopping for the holiday! if i can achieve that, i am sooooo proud of myself =D i need to start saving money...aiyo.. =) to all the people out there, smile!!! eventho im a bit grumpy these past few days.hehe.. but shhmmmiillleee!! =D

i try to deny it, over and over and over again

no, its normal for me to feel this way. dont tell me i think too much whatsoever. i deserve to feel what i feel.

Lurve =)

I lurve my boyfriend =D
hehehe.. what's with this post, eh? just wanna have a few posts that says i lurrrvvvee him =D hehe... Thank you for all the times you were listening to my ramblings, my sleepy moments where nuthin i say makes any sense =p, for listening to my problems ( i always report to u for every single thing that makes me feel sad=p) aiyo.., haha.. and for always putting up a smile on my face =) , play a lullaby for me =D, and help me a lot in my PCL =D, and always always ask me to study =D, and for reminding me to do some of the right things in life, for tolerating with all my flaws,and thank you for just being there for me =) i lap uuuu!!!! =D

cant wait for u to be back in august =)

from,
ur beloved chipmunk-ish batman-ish teletubby =D

nak nangesssss ;(

just to be more dramatic, i feel like cryingggg ;( waaaaaaaaaaaaa.....................

What's happening to meeeeee??? ;(

i feel so eeewww.... I need to be more responsible and study properly. I need to plan my time wisely. I have been hiding A LOT! waaa.... I need to overcome my shopping addiction. And when my schedule is tight, u noe wat i do? I do NOTHING. yup, nothing! i should be working harder, instead i do nothing. I have no idea why this week has been so stressful! there's just like so many things to do, but instead of working hardddd.... im just running away from the things i should be doing. waaaa.... whats happening to me.??? holidays, pls come fast. cos im going insaneee.... i need a BREAK from all these. i need to reset my priorities and get myself focused, AGAIN. As i am aware i have lost focus. What am i doing with this little brain of mine??? waaa... i dont knowww... it's CONFUSING!

=( i feel like a little kitten lost out of nowhere. and the world is moving so fast. And i am stuck there, at that corner. ;( waaaa...... sometimes i just wish i can suddenly faint and get through that day.

=)

•When you are tired and discouragedfrom fruitless efforts... ALLAH knowshow hard you have tried..
• When you've cried so long and your heart is in anguish... ALLAH has countedyour tears.
• If you feel that your life is on holdand time has passed you by... ALLAH iswaiting with you.
• When you're lonely and your friends are too busy even for a phone call..ALLAH is by your side.
• When you think you've tried everything and don't know where to turn... ALLAH has a solution.
• When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated... ALLAH has theanswer.
• If suddenly your outlook is brighter and you find traces of hope ... ALLAH has whispered to you.
• When things are going well and you have much to be thankful for... ALLAH has blessed you.
• When something joyful happens and you are filled with awe... ALLAH has smiled upon you.
• When you have a purpose to fulfill anda dream to follow... ALLAH has opened your eyes and called you by name.
Remember that wherever you are or whatever you are facing... ALLAH KNOWS(^__^)

polka DOTs! vain vain vain.. =p

I feel like a princess wearing this dress =p heee... =p weekend is greaattt for playing dress up! =p i cant help it!!! waaaaa... i have tonnnness of stuff to study ;( waaaaaaaaaaaaaa......can i just have a photographic memory? =p hee..that would be fun!! but I am blessed with a lot of things =D i should appreciate them and stop whining.okay, tape my mouth! =p lurvvvvveeeeeeeee!!!

dressing up a kitty cat! =p

Same top, but different mood of colours in both sets of outfit combination =p I lurvvvveee to play dress up! =p

no lurve for negative thoughts,pimples, melted plastic container and homeworks

that just kinda summed up what i have in mind.
and just for a second just now, i thought if i had not controlled myself, i would be INSANE.
it's like the threshold thingy, limited myself to bcome annoyed at sumthin or anythin just below the threshold level. If i crossed that level, i wouldnt be writing this. Instead i will go hysterical.
LOL. it's amazing of how 'eewww' i have become in these attempts of improving myself ALOT.
I seriously think im not in a goood mental health state. Should avoid me. As the monster within is on the surface. BEWARE. Bluekkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hhahahha.....and now im laughing. now i seriously am insane.

Think =)

"Kadang² Allah sembunyikan matahari..
Dia datangkan petir dan kilat..
Kita menangis dan tertanya-tanya,kemana hilangnya sinar..
Rupa²nya..Allah nak hadiahkan kita pelangi.."

Back In Action =D Dress UP! hee... =p

hehe.. I look so colourful! =D i cannot live without colour =p hehe... do i loo like a walking colourful jungle?waaa.. =p playing dress up is fun!! lalala... lurve u ppl all around the world!!hee..

feeling blueeeee or blacccckkkkk or greyyyy

i have been sooo lazy! waa... i have no idea whats wrong with my brain ;( and i am soooo sure my anatomy of the head is zero cos i havent really been studying it properly ;( i wanna go away..far far away.. and today is FRIDAY. the day which i have PCL!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... dun wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.... i wanna run sumwhere, and hide.. so nobody can find me and escapeee...yayyyyy!! i have a hiding place, u noe.. which i wont tell u ppl..heehehehehe... but then again, when i escape from it, it just gets bigger and bigger and i cant afford to escape anymore..waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i want my jaja! i want my nazmi! i want my cat! i want to have no homework, no assignment! i wanna sleeepp 8 hours a day ;( Bluekkkkkkk
OMg i sound like a spoiled brat.hurm.... dun care. BLUEK!

Turning over a new leaf =)

Im wearing 'tudung' now! hee... What do you think? =) I just hope I will become an improved me and a better Muslim =) hee.. Pray for me! =p

Ps: I can only upload this pic! OMG! i cant upload other pics with my new dress =( waa.. whats happening to my blogspot? wuaaaaa... ;(

Running awayyy~~~ up , up and awayyyy

I feel like crying ;( every thursday, the nite before friday, the day when i have to present in pcl.. has this supernatural power to make me cry every week, without fail. Why is it haunting me? waaaaaaaaaaaaa..... Im not the type of person who can just come up with stuff and talk bout it.. well, they call it 'goreng'.. hehe.. I dont like PRESENTATIONS! cant they just leave me in peace? grrrrrr....

This is what i had for supper a few days back.. and i wore that dat dress to class the other day..

Polka -D-o-t-s!!

Dear bloggie, I have tried to maintain my happiness nowadays by taking things easy. There's no point for me to be stressed or angry with something or someone. Its just gonna make me feel worse and kill more of my brain neurons, which i have very few left. lol. Although i still feel like screaming my lungs out till their eardrums shatter into pieces. Dont worry, perforated eardrums are no big deal. lol. They can regenerate. Bluek! 'I dont give a damn'!! YAY! i feel so good after saying those words. lalalalala....catch me if u can. BLUEK! I, Salina aka nana, will continue chirping and screaming no matter how abusive the world can be! and once again, BLUEK!! =D bluek bluek bluek!

Ps: I lurve my polka dot top! Pink polka dots with blue background =) I wore this to class today

Lalala... Home sweet home =p

I'm back!! wowee... they dont really have a nice place to go shopping in segamat.waaaa... so i did a bit of shopping yesterday =p HEHEHE... not a bit of shopping..kinda a lot of shopping.hmm... but i will just show 1 dress first..later on i will play dress up will the rest of the clothes =D

heehe.. Segamat was BZ for us students. thought we could relax... but there was lotsa assignments.. apart from that, the hospital and clinic were great.. we got to interview patients and did some physical examination on them.. and we got to do ECG on some patients too.. hehehe... and erm.. i got to drink carrot juice everyday =p

lalalala... Im outta time!! been PLAYING the whole day! =p

underneath the moon, underneath the stars, here's a lil heart for u..

lalala... i actually dont really know what to say =p but im kinda happy today =D hee... erm..i'll be going to johor next week for 2 weeks!! away from home for 2 weeks!! aaaa.... hehe..im kinda looking forward to dat actually =p hahahaha... but im surely gonna miss home too =p but its kinda kewl to get away from routines sumtimes =p i lurve playing dress up!! =D =D =D lalalla.... i have been singing and singing...if it rains, i am soooo sooorry =p try to listen to these songs = lenka- dont let me fall and lenka-live like you're dying =p hahahaha.. great lyrics!! =D lalala...dont let me fall.... i have tonnes of stuff to study.. but i just feel like going out this wekend.. watch movie, shopping and eat eat eat and sleep sleep sleep...aaaaaa..... lurve lurve evryone! hope everyone lurves me too! although i feel lack of lurve these days ;( hehe.. but i know those people who lurve me =D lurrrrvvvveee uuuu.... nite nite.. im just being extra vain tonite =D

gimme a lil love, gimme just enough, so that i can hold on tight

Can't wait for tomorrow to be over. It's a countdown, i would be even happier if tomorrow is done. I know there's a laber -looser- on my forehead today. Been crying for hours, wondering when the swollen eyes go away, my lurvely bf cheered me up, now i'm ready to play dress up again!

BOO HOO tomorrow! i shall survive! bluek bluek bluek. eventhough i hve tonnes of works to be done. Pls dont abuse me with so much work. Thank uuuuuuuu >.<

Berjuta warna pelangi di hatiku =p

hehe..what i am doing playing dress up and singing? i have tonnnneeesss of works to do! anatomy practical, pcl, cbp assignment and referncing...aaaahh... i need a break! at least 59 minutes and 59 seconds! heee... people! i cant wait for this week to be over... i wanna be free! =p lalala... smile! purr..

rainbow and sunshine =)

it's been a loong time since i last updated my blog eh? heee..been bz, been emo, been happy, been smiling, been crying, been sleeping late, been laughing.. basically, they are all moments of which you and i have =) have super dooper a lot of assignments to be done. been a zombie lately. and it has kinda become a norm in my daily life.hmm.. should stop wasting my time when i still have the time and start sleeping early. hmm..just wanna update to let everyone knows im still chirping =p like always.lol.

Ps: i lurve this top. u do know how much i lurve fashion rite? =p it's just my hobby. one of the ways in expressing myself. not trying and will never try to act cool.lol

bla bla bla...

FOS now having 'buy 1 free 1' promotion.. and looking at my green and red tops, u wud have guessed they are under those promotion.hehe.. i got them at RM7.50 each!! heee.. where can u get those at those price huh? hmm.. so... those are my attempts to make a comeback of my long forgotten long black lace skirt.hehe.. i should be studying. gosh! wish me luck people.. exam is just around the corner.. and i need myself to FOCUS! see the lack of smile in the photos? hmm.. bluek.

when things get tough, the tough goes shopping!!

i cleaned up my room today..and my wardrobes too... hmm..my wardrobes are about to explode anytime soon..HELP!! i have been feeling quite down nowadays..'cheerful' nana is being suppressed =( waaa... i hope 'grumpy' nana will soon be gone.
hmm..misssing my nazmi! =) my jaja! my lala! my kaklin! and miss my navina too!

ok, here are pics of me with giant red flower and pink arsenal bear!hehe..both are given by nazmi =) thank u sooo mucho! =D

it's been awhile...

Just the presence of 1 person can make a huge difference in someone's life. I have read numerous blogs on how that special someone has changed a lot of children's lives and how those children can grow up to be healthy individuals. And even when they grow up, they still remember the name of that special someone. I guess the family members must have never forgotten how that special someone has helped them.
And that special someone I have been referring to is our late Dr Amin Tai =) Al fatihah..

I hope I can leave the world one day, leaving behind a lot of contributions and to be remembered for them . Just like him =D

But before that, I need to:
-study my anatomy thoroughly!waa.... i think my brain has some quarrels with the anatomy book.
-i really should be studying hard ;( i just need to. i dont mind being called a nerd. but the problem is how to transform myself into a nerd!!
-i have a new mission! i wanna become a nerd!!! cos sumtimes all i need to start doing is to open the book!! and sometimes even opening the book is so much of a hassle to my brain.waaaaaaaaaa....
-i wanna be a smart doctor!! i dont want to harm anyone with my blurness!!waa....

heh..being a vain person i am, here are a few pics of me de-stressing myself =p

Al Fatihah

Deepest condolences to my beloved Nazmi and his family for the loss of their father, Allahyarham Dr Amin Tai. He was indeed a great and one of the finest paediatric surgeons we can ever have. His loss is deeply felt as he has contributed so much to the society. So now let us all pray for him.

Al Fatihah.

what does it do to your heart?cause it hurts.

i feel like singing.but somehow i just dont kow how anymore.there's no more feelings that i used to have whenever i felt like singing.if i can recall correctly, i just felt a bit more relaxed and calm whenever i sang last time. but now its just a feeling of hmm..i sound terrible! n i cant have that kind of feeling of erm..how do u say? to be a part of that song.hmm.. blah.i just dont know how to describe. the thing is, i just dont know how to sing anymore!get what i mean? but i know i can sing if my twin sister is beside me =p hehehee...

i just hope this is temporary.cos my mood has been like a rollercoaster these past few days.there are small things that shouldnt really affect me, but i end up crying.if there's 1 thing i can say to myself rite now,it would be...st-ew-peed... heh.a nicer way of spelling the real word.lol.

i need holidays.i think i am slowly getting to know the world.believe it or not, i've always felt like a kid.my perceptions, opinions and views are slowly changing.. does that mean im growin up?hee.. but i dont wanna be like a very serious looking adult.get what i mean? cos i think if im surrounded with soo much of serious serious stuff, i can get killed.it's called 'serious emotional accident'.HEHE. u never know what runs through my mind =p sometimes in the lecture hall, i can just imagine birds flying up at the ceiling.. and chirping =p ok fine. i need a hug.

--when the world goes round and round and round--

nope, i dont know what im thinking.yes.so i shall end it here.

i need my wings to fly =p

hehe..my gorilla is going back to india from london tomorrow =D wheee.. i have extra energy to kacau people!hehe..erm...i've been quite unpredictable today.lol.i dont even understand wats happening.oh myy... i hope my brain will function perfectly tomorrow. i think i need more brain neurons.. anybody wanna donate me some? haha.

i dont know what i should be writing rite now.owh i need to start studying hard!! waaaa..NANA! study laaaa......eeee...dush dush dush! =p
someone said i act like a cat today.lol.i noe it sounds weird, but im happy to hear dat.told ya. im an alien. nite people! meowww...

stomach oh stomach

hmmm... hmmm... what shall i write? im clueless... but 1 thing for sure, im not gonna activate the 'vain' mode today and put up my pic with my beloved clothes.lol.

owh yeah.. i dont know why.. but i've been having gastric for 3 days in a row..waaa...i dont like it...and its around the same time..5 pm.. that will be my medical history =p i shall write a complete 1 later =p lol.

erm erm erm.... i wish that i dont feel sleepy often.why am i always sleepy?grrrr....

but besides all those stuff, im kinda happy =) hehe..

'you can only be as happy, as how u allow yourself to be'

so, opt to be happy, people!! SMILE!!! =D

no matter who u are, where u are, there are people who think of you =)

i spent the whole day yesterday doing everything except studying. woke up today at 11, OMG-ing cos realised there's just too much to study... and then started studying, abit.planning to stay up late tonite, and be sleepy in class tomorrow, and start acting like a zombie in tutorial. wow. such an impressive planning. woweee....

went to friend's hostel today =D super friendly fwens!! hehe... i got to eat cookies, black pepper meat and scrambled egg with rice. =p chit chatting alot. and laughing and giggling most of the time =p hehe..lurve u people! =D

miss my twin.miss my bestie.miss my gorilla. waaa....

busy tiring week...and its only the 2nd week...

Ok, my pcl just now was kinda better than the previous one =p i could actually present without being cartoon-ish =p i hope..haha..but i think i have to make my voice firmer or tougher? so that hmm.. i sound a bit more serious =p lol.

waaa...my back hurts and my left calf too..actually i had a fall on the staircase 2-3 years back.. and i actually fell quite hard on the floor, but i fell sitting on the stairs.get what i mean?so i just sat there for a few minutes cos i was still shocked. so i was like slowly getting up... and yay! i could walk =p lol.. but then slowly after that...i realised certain movements were kinda painful.. and i think its at the sacral level.. and after dat i realised i have this pain around my calve and it's actually around the S2 dermatome.. waaaa...so in d lecture hall, i find it quite uncomfortable to sit for a long time.. and also to stand for a long time.. its such a great relief when i can lie down. hmm...hmm..hmm...i am not old yet to experience all these.waaa... but i dont think it's a slipped disc, no? cos im still young and my intervertebral disc hould be quite strong?waaa...maybe its just a muscle strain?maybe its a coincident that my calve just hurts bcos i walk too much?lol.dear sacrum,dear calf,please behave urself.

i think this weekend i should be more angelic and i should not waste my time like how i did last weekend. hmm.. hee..=p

i dont know why i feel sooooooooooo tired.........helppppp!
i sound like a granny >.<

i feel okay but at the same time i feel like crying ;(

i think im just tired.or exhausted.bluek bluek bluek.

dear anatomy,
please be nice to me.
im trying to make sense in everything u say, but apparently nothing seems to make sense in this little head of mine.
thank u.

dear someone,
i think less attention is given to a monkey.
>.<>

dear brain, please be more considerate. u dont need that much of sleep.

dear nana, please prioritise. get rid of unnecessary things in ur life. and stop wasting ur time. thank u.

dear world, please smile more often. thank u.

kaki saya sakit ;( macam ada orang makan. waaa...

i think im gonna wear this when i go to class tomorrow..

2nd day of the 2nd week of the 2nd month of the 2nd year of class =p

i need to take care of my heart.
waaaa....i should start taking care of it since i was young! i remember myself eating mc d's everyday when i was in form 2.. grrr.. now i hope there wont be so much visceral fat in my body ;( actually all those plaques can start depositing in ur body in ur first decade of life!

from nw on, i would exercise at least 3 times a week, atleast 45 mins every session =D yay!! i just hope i wont turn into a couch potato..like i always do =p
there's sumthin weird bout the way i eat.. i make sure that i dont eat so much of fried food.. use oilve oil in my cooking..not so much sugar in my tea...bla bla bla..to avoid the oil , sugar and stuff.. but i just surrender when i see chocolate ice blended!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............. and i ask them to put lotsa whipped cream too!! and thats like soooo fattening! and i drink it often! =( and it is sooooooooooooo sweettttttttttt....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

i need to keep it balanced! hmm.. i just saw a picture of someone's arteries with a very thick deposits of plaques... and it was soooo eeeww!i want to have healthy heart and blood vessels ;( i dont wanna undergo bypass surgery.. i dont want all those fatty2 stuff surrounding my heart.. hmm.. i guess this is effective. by showing people how eew ur organs can be if u dont maintain them.at least it works for me =p the thinner u are, doesnt mean ure fit! =p my lecturer said she has this patient which weighs around 125 kg, and her cholestrol level is even better than my lecturer's. and u have to be scared of visceral fat!! somehow my fat likes to accumulate around my thighs...eeeeewwww.....i wanna lose weight!and become healthier =D

and this is what i wore to class today..i didnt wear it with the cardigan cos i think i dont wanna hide the beautiful ruffles at the shoulder =p

there can be miracles....when u believe... =D

heh..its been quite a long time since i last heard that song by whitney houston and mariah carey.. i lurrve that song! =) and i actually like britney spears.. eventhough she is going through some rough times this past few years..but somehow(i seriously dont know why) she will get through it and become a better person! maybe even better than before =p eventhough i just see her on tv, and dont know much bout her.. heh.. i think she's just confused =p lol. oh myyy..why am i blogging bout her.. =p

in the afternoon i played chess with my dad..thich is a very rare occasion =p lol.. and as expected, i lost =p lol.. i kept on giggling while playing..i couldnt be serious! =p and i would scream when my pieces were being eaten.lol. ok, there were a few important comments from my dad:
1) every move u make, there should be a reason =p .
( he kept asking me what was the point when i made some useless move =p) and i answered, ' cos i wanna eat ur piece'
and my dad answered,' that's the only reason?' and i answered, 'yeah,kinda..=p'
2)u need to think more than that-think why ur opponent moved it there.. and think a few steps ahead why u wanna ur piece there.
he always said that i didnt think enough before deciding the best move.hmm...i get confused when i think too much! =p oh myyy.. i shoulddd think deeper...heeellllp!
3)u should develop all ur strong pieces first, before u decide to sacrifice them when u wanna eat ur opponent's piece.
i was like...'owh.. i never really thought bout that..waaaa... i think all i thought of was only to eat my opponent =p' oh myyy..
4)whenever possible, move ur pieces to the centre.not at the side or backward.
so i kinda learned that, even if u wanna safe ur piece from being eaten, move forward.. avoid going backward =p useful tip!
5)ur king can move everywhere... =p
haha..this is bcos he kept 'check-ing' me.. and i had to bring my king all over the world to safe him =p but eventhough king has only limited steps he can make, never underestimate its uses =p and i said' my king is too fat, he has to exercise..so i have to bring him jogging all over the chess board =p haha..

so, when i reflect all those things he said, u can kinda use those things in real life..?no? in certain situations la... =p and after playing chess, believe it or not, i started to feel fever-ish =p my brain is pampered too much!!i only used it to think a bit oso, become very tired already =p lol!

LDR with my bestie!! =D

hehe..jus now we saw each other on webcam!! =p haha.. u kept saying i look like a smiling mickey mouse!!!!??! =p =p =p oh my.. now im a mickey mouse? =p hahahaha..... glad to find ure happy there =p i think i noe the main reason =p ehem ehem =p hahahah... as long as ure happy! =D we study hard now kay? then we see each other in brisbane at the end of this year!!! wheee... cant wait!! the meowies reunited!! jaja and lala havent seen each other for a loong time!!! oh my.. im gonna meet my meowies!! cant wait cant wait!!
dont worry, lala...ur shopping addiction is purrrrrfectly normal!! =D ure not alone! =p heee... we meowies help the world in our own way by shopping(one of the ways)!!!! hehehe.. =p
just bcos im soo happy, i will play dress up again!! but im getting fatter!hellpp!

i need more chocolatesssss.....>.<

i actually dont know what to write..weird...i always have sumthin to write...hmm..i went to the supermarket just now..and i didnt buy enough chocos.waaa...they are all gone..in my stomach.hmmm.i want choco ice blended!guess wat? i just feel like flying off to brisbane rite now.even for 2 days.nonono i cant.where got money for the ticket la =p haha....ok, i shall wait for the end of the year.i will spend most of time with my twinnie and my bestie, lala!! =D we plan to go there togeder aite?hehe... owh my gorilla will be back in august for good =D hehe.yay ness.

what else eh?i think i have been bored and boring too =p lol. its weird but this past few days i've been thinking about things that i din really bother to think about before.i am actually gonna turn 21 years old this april.*promote2 bday!! nak bday present!* =p and 21 sounds erm.. like a twenty one. do u get what i mean? i dont think i sound old. but not that young too. i finished my spm when i was 17. and this year im 21??!!? oh my, time flies like a superman. and when i graduate, i will be 24 years old... like 24? then 25,then 26....27..bla bla bla...and the list goes on. its like i noe, im 20 turning 21, but i always felt like i am still in my teen years. u noe what i mean? this 20, 21,22 figure dont really change me much =p lol. i dont know weder its a good thing.lol.
ok, lemme list up how i see myself in 5 years time:
when im 25,OMG! i cant imagine myself at 25! ok, ok, focus..
i think its too early to think what will happen in 5 years =p i shall think about it later =p hahahaha..

somehow i like smiles =D it's so precious and wow-ness! i like people who smile.i mean like a sincere smile. hehe. i hope i do smile often to the world =) hehe. guess what?i have stomach ache =( i just had gastric yesterday and now what im feeling is definitely not gastric. which is very weird. hmm..i just wanna i lurve everyone in my life =) i dont know why, suddenly i miss miss miss people and aliens. i think its true what they say, 'people come and go in ur life. but they do make a difference in ur life in some way =D'

good nite,everyone.lurve everyone!=D

i am a monkey jumping up and down disturbing ppl's sweet dreams and steal their bananas at nite

dont they know that i know that they know that i dont know about the things they know? i hate presentations! i actually have heart palpitation everytime i have to present. and i will speak very fast that no one could understand properly.so whats the point of me presenting?arrrggghh... just to let u noe, i will be sick-ish next friday.and i cant present.i wish!

there are times, well countless times, when i feel stupid. somehow i feel its normal already nowadays. oh myy.. i feel normal. its not a good sign. SELF DIRECTED LEARNING! i need to direct myself, my head, my brain, to think of the things that i should think of. i lurve to be spoonfed. oh my.my my my.now there is no more spoon.whats left is only my occasionally functioning brain to work.

shh! rite. 2 posts in 1 nite. that shows i have too much time. NOT! owh well. im just gonna keep myself awake by playing dress up and start studying abit after dat. oh my! did i just say study? clap clap!! im so proud of nana!! whhee heee... =D

Owh,this butterfly is used as decoration in my room =D i just lurve butterflies.dont u?hehe.. i have many clothes, but i dont really buy branded ones ya noe.. i buy my clothes at a very reasonable price =) and maybe there's a few a bit expensive ones.. but mostly are kinda reasonable or cheap. in all these pics, none of my pants or top is above RM30 =p i think u dont have to spend so much of money to buy good clothes and to look comel =p u just have to mix and match like how u want it to be! =D but then again, i buy too many clothes that when i think back, eventhough each piece dont cost that much, but when i added up the total sum it's kinda a lot >.< darlings ="p">

yawn yawn yawn

i am sleeeepppyy.......................
is it weird that i think im weird?
somehow my eyes are closing and i havent brushed my teeth yet.
i need to brush my teeth first at least.
but im too lazy... i would rather sit on the bed typing sumthin rather than to walk to the toilet and brush my teeth.
oh myy...
pls wake me up!
i need a slap!
ouch!
that hurts!
grrrrr!

Lurve Quotes

One word frees us Of all the weight and pain in life, That word is Love .

Once in awhile, Right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale.

Only love lets us see normal things In an extraordinary way.

Hearts are not to be had as a gift Hearts are to be earned...

A heart that loves is always young.

What the heart gives away is never gone ... It is kept in the hearts of others.

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.

The night has a thousand eyes, And the day but one; Yet the light of the bright world dies, With the dying sun. The mind has a thousand eyes, And the heart but one; Yet the light of a whole life dies, When love is done.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, While loving someone deeply gives you courage.

In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.

Just because someone doesn't love you in the way you want them to, doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they've got.

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same.

~i have no idea why i searched for lurve quotes.just for fun!

bluek

how lame can i be? guess y i am blogging rite now? cos the ppl who i feel like talking to are bz...waaa....but dats okay.i can still fill my time listening to doraemon song(curently) and being in denial that i dont have any school work to do.

i am curious.about a few stuff.today. they are:

3)i am such a SLOW anatomy learner.i slept at 3 last nite jus to finish up my anat task. and guess wat? i don think i got much out of it.
4)i dont feel like doing anything rite now.
5)tried to sleep, but cudnt.how sad is that?
6)planning to wake up later to finish up my work.why dont i just finish it up now?i wonder.owh,bcos i am an eeeew person.d-uhhh!
7)craving for black forrest chocolate ice blended.thats a proof! i just drank it yesterday and i want it again today
8)somehow i feel like hiding.

Year 2 =)

hee... somehow i feel happy today , and yesterday..unlike the first few days when i was in YEar 1 last year, i was terrified!! haha..actually i was kinda terrified till class ended last year..i cant really remember why...lol.. but this year i think those small things that did bother me last year dont really bother me nimore this year =D clap clap!! hehe.. and im actually looking forward to do my homeowrk later(rite after my blog =p) this is almost impossible last year..hehe..i hope i will be improving throughout the whole year! =) pray for me! =p

but..... just now i went to the gym with my mum..and i kinda walk on the threadmill..ok, i din feel like running..hehe.. and soon after dat, i bought 'black forrest' chocolate ice blended! omg it was soooo sedap!! and that just defeats the purpose of me going to the gym!! eeww.. and this has happened twice, so far..in a week!! last sunday... i did my walking stuff in the gym wit my mum.. and after dat i went to the coffee bean and ordered 'the ultimate' choclate ice blended!! omg omg.. im gonna gain weight if i continue doing this..grr.. i have no idea why tasting those chocolates are kinda addictive! are u sure chocolate is not listed as one of those drugs?lol..cos to me, it IS addictive!!!! helpppppppppppppppppppppppppp....

owh, i think i made a fool out of myself in my tutorial grp..listen to this conversation:

my lecturer: ok, in ortopnoea(shortness of breath when u lie flat), u have to assess the degree of severity by asking the patient how many pillows they feel comfortable sleeping on.. if they need more pillows, then it means it's more severe. Ok, so what question do u ask the patient, next?

me: ask the patients how thick is 1 pillow to them..(with this serious look on my face)

my lecturer:(stared at me for a few seconds..i think to make sure that i was not making a joke) and finally laughed a bit.. she said'hmm... i never thought of that.i guess i shud ask =p)

my whole group: (smiled, and trying not to laugh)

GREAT!!! i am a SUPERB clown-ish student =p well, it took me quite a long time why my question was kinda funny. or maybe not. hmm.. i am still confused actually. why is that so pelik? is it dat pelik? owh, that was not the only thing i answered that got the same kinda reaction. it just happens that my brain asks weird2 or unnecessary question.hmmm..HHMMM.....
HELPPP!!!! i need to be a bit more normaaallllllllllllllll....aaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....................

class is gonna start tomorrow!

i have finally tidied up my room! which is like 1 nite before class starts..omg..procrastination IS the thief of time..grr...but looking at the bright side, at least i did clean up my room =p
ok, rite now im wondering which clothes to wear tomorrow, wat colour would be good on the first day of class.. and i wonder wether the lecture hall will be freezing like last yer's..shud i bring my pashmina?no no no.. everytime i wrap myself around the pashmina, i would be snoozing..hmm.. which bag to use?the cat bag? the stripey bag?the colourful polkadots?omg..im in dilemma!hmm..i think i will use the stripey bag..

i need to start saving money!! i have been shopping like crazzzyyyy.. my craze is only clothes. yup. and chocolate iceblended.or chocolates.but im scared cos i've been buying too many clothes!hehe...but i rili do lurve clothes! i feel sooo happy when i buy them =p jus now i couldnt figure out which colour was nicer, and i ended up buying both...same piece, just diff colours. rite now i do admit i am a shopaholic! and it only took me 5 mins to decide that i should take both>.< i shud behave myself! i should get scolded! i did get scolded..hmm..somehow my brain always says yes to clothes...and my heart says yes too..so it feels so right =p hahaha..

i i just realised my room is so pink! the wall, the curtain,almost all of my clothes hanging on the rack,my comforter,my camera...omg...somehow it freaks me out when i realise i'm turning into a girlie girl. nononononono...at least i play some sports.and although i like to cook,its purely bcos i like to eat and i like looking at people eating the food i cook.its like play time!cooking is like playing..hehe. and i rili dont like the idea that some ppl think girls have to learn to cook just because they are girls.eew..its not like our job or sumthin..rite?yay!im not a girlie girl!hehe...did i ever mention that i dont like the colour blue?hehehe..sorry,gorilla! =p turqoise is nice...but other blue shades dont rili get my attention =p but i do like bright colours though =p i think i prefer warm colours..

hmm..wat else?somehow i feel like talking!i still remember last time my twin and i will talk for hours at nite before we decide that we're sleepy and shouldgo to bed =p haha.. owh and my bestie too!!lala!! remember those nites?we would be on the phone for hours! =p hahaha..and then stop halfway to brush our teeth just incase we get too sleepy later on =p i miss those dayssssssssss....and my gorilla too! we would be chatting..and u would have to force me to sleep =p haha..and u will make sure i pray before i sleep =D u make me feel like a little girl =p haha...

guess wat?there's ist enough space for my clothes...i knoe, u must be wondering..3 wardrobes!! and i still dont have enough space??!! but seriously, all those clothes have their own uses.. they are unique in their own way..i lurrrvvve allll my clothes! =D

nana, good luck on ur first day of Year 2 tomorrow!! from, salina =D
(somehow the name salina makes me feel being a bit more serious, and 'nana' makes me feel like playing and having fun =p)

hmm..i miss miss misss....

rite now i'm missing so many people..my twin,jaja...my bestie,lala...and my gorilla, too...

sometimes i think it's unfair for me and my twin to be so far apart..i still remember at the airport..when they were sending me off.. when i hugged jaja good bye, we both started to shed tears..but i knew i had to stop it rite there and then, cos if not i would not stop crying.lol.saying goodbye is hard.. and now im rite back at home..somehow i feel lonely..i think rite after she studied in aussie, our paths have changed... imagine that we've been together since we were born..and same class in primary school, same high school,but then in college, i was in taylor's and she was in intec,,but i could still see her often..but now i just realised i will never have that opportunity to wake up late to school together again, getting stressed out together bcos exam is coming again..talking for hours when we were trying to do homework,but ended up sleeping..now i have to face it all alone..i dont think i wanna whine bout it, but im just hoping that i have enough courage and strength to cope everything..i noe things that don't kill you, will just make u stronger ...rite?not.all these things only make me cry even more n more.. they dont make me stronger!crying means im weak, rite?so i should stop.but its so hard to control..grr..omg i dont like to cry! grrrrrrrrrrrrr................

and my bestie,lala..hmm..jus now i was just checking when the shopaholic movie is gonna be released in msia.. and i've always imagined myself watching it with her.. another meowie that i can totally be myself with =) but lala ure not here nimore ;( i mishhh uuu... i cant watch the movie with u..waa... we always watch all those girlie mvie together2 rite? i rili do mish u sooooo much! ;(( i hope auckland is treating you good.. and im crying again now..omg..haha..nvm la.. i can cry as much as i want.then i will sleep , and then i will feel better..hehe..rite lala?rite?

and my gorilla is travelling around uk now.. hmm...i rili mish u too ;( take good care of urself there,k? cant wait for u to be back in august ...usually ure the one who listens to all my ramblings..or whatever eew feelings or those emo moments =p haha..sometimes i can be such a drama queen =p thank u so much for always being there =) u always make me feel there's nothing to worry about..and rite now, i dont know why i feel nervous that class is gonna start soon..but i promise myself i will work harder this time! pray for me..

i dont know why, i've been a bit moody today.and.yesterday.i want a cattttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt or koalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..no, i think i prefer catssssssssssssssssssssssssss.................................... y can't i have 1? ;( waaaaaaaaaaaa......... i dont mean to replace nuni, i just want a cat... cos i know the cat is gonna lurve me like how i lurve them=D i dont care. i wanna ask my parents to let me have a cat for my birthday. can i? i want laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............................................y do i feel like screaaaaammmmingggggggggggggggggggg?????????????i i should stop now cos i noe anything i write after this will not make sense..i know myself too well..grr..but sometimes i just dont understand myself at all?get what i mean?omg i should stop now.

Brisbane was all happiness =D

I was back from Brisbane 2 days ago .. It was really fun! I think it was 1 of the happiest moments in my life =) thanks to jaja,fazren,syikin,shikin's mum and zatil =) heee.. i really did have a blast there =) i will not hesitate to go there again!! =) hee...

okay, just now i made lunch for my parents and i.. i cooked macaroni soup! =) sedap woo =p hehe.. i put in tiny2 anchovies.. not the big2 one... cos the tiny2 ones taste nicer to me =p but i didnt take pics of it..grr.. and i put in a lot of veges.. i put in tomatos and sawi(wat is it called in english?) and the anchovies give a lot of taste to the soup.. but then i also put in a bit of sesame oil, soy sauce and a bit of tomato sauce.nyummy nyum! it's healthy! cos u only use a lil bit of oil to sautee the onion and the anchovies..and a bit of red chilli =)

ok,then i made chicken tomyam and steamed fish for dinner =p but i cooked them at 3 oclock..hehehe.. cos i promised my mum to cook dinner if i wanna go out with her tonite =p hehe.. ok, that one i didnt take pics also..grr..

BUT i did take pics of cupcakes! =p

Rosey Choco Chip Raisins Cupcakes!

I bought rose shaped mould from Aussie when i was there.. i lurve the rose shape!! =D

and these cupcakes were made using coconut oil! i didnt use butter or margarine..cos i wanted to find a healthier option =p hehe.. and i put in chocolate chips! and raisins! nyummy nyum! but then the cupcakes didnt raise up well as how it should be..maybe cos i used oil instead of butter or margarine..or maybe cos i stir the batter a bit too much =p hehe..but i like eating them anyway =p especially cos it has lotsa chocolate chips inside =p hehehe... and and and.. i have a weakness in baking.. i am super duper lazy to measure how much sugar,flour,or oil/margarine i need to use..instead i just poured them as anyhow i like =p weird huh? haha...thats y i like cooking better than baking..cos i am free to do anything i like.. =p but in baking, i think u just observe the thickness of the batter..if cookies, they will be thicker..but if cakes, they will be thinner =p but it is always wise to measure the ingredients =p i will, 1 day =p

here i come! =)

i will be visiting my twin sister in aussie tomorrow =) i'm sooo haaappyyy!! i noe she's the one i can always be myself with =) i think this is life.. there are ups and downs..and for some reason, i think nowadays the 'downs' always favour me..lol.. but i'm grateful with everything i'm blessed with =) although i realised i'm quite complex actually.. sometimes i dont even know why i feel ike how i feel.. hmm.. weird,huh?hehe.. i think it's just a matter of time..haha..i can't wait to see my twin sister tomorrow =) and my gorilla in august =) i will survive 2009 =) i will! bring it on... =p

it's not even mutual.lol.

i think i'm the only 1 hu has been imagining things..hahahaha... the cat doesn't like me actually.. i'm the one who thinks so...actually the cat meows and purrss to everyone..hahaha..a msg to the cat=eat a lot,sleep a lot and jump alot! hahaha..i miss my nuni ;(

dear gorilla, all the best in your exam! =) you can do it! chaiyok2!!
from,
your sleepyhead monkey

Alhamdulillah.. =D

I am haaapppy! =D I think I should've learned my lesson, and I shall be more hard working in my studies this year =) I can do it!!yay!! pls pls pls nana..i beg you to stay focus =) FOCUS! hehe.. I should try to force myself to study a bit everyday no matter how sleepy i am.. i tend to pamper myself too much!aiyo..hehehehe..and strictly no sleeping in class!!

I should think positive and exercise !! To keep myself healthy =) owh owh owh.. and fruit juice in the morning!! hmm..letme share my secret ingridient with the whole wide world =)
Nana's Fruit Juice= blend apple,banana,honey,water =p it's yummy!! u dont have to remove the fiber or anythin..just blend them without removing the fiber =) and erm.. the proportion of each fruit also matters...like the amount of apple,banana, honey and water you put.. that one u have to try it urself =p once u have tried a few times, then u noe the perfect balance of how much u need to put in =p OMG i am like sooo 'semangat' talking bout food =p hehehehe.. actually u can almost use any fruit =) u just have to match with the right fruit =p hehe.. and in then end everything will taste nice if u noe how to modify it a bit =p

I made dinner for my family just now.. but didnt take any piccies =p hehe.. nvm, next time i will =) I feel happy looking at people eating the food i cooked =D there's just so much lurve to it =p
im weird, i noe =p hehehehe..

I get to see my twin sister next week!! woo hooooo.... =D i can so imagine i am the giant version of my twin ;( waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... =p but then again, i lurve my fat too.. they'r egonna mish me, ya noe? =p

outing with my bestie =)

yesterday we went to sunway pyramid and watched the Bride Wars movie..it was awesome! just purrr-fect for a girl kinda movie..hee.. and i was wearing my pixie dress! =) hee..there we were, talking and talking..sharing our problems, eating chocolate waffle together...and continue talking at secret recipe.. thanks, bestie! =) im surely gonna mish you =(

things have been rough to me nowadays.. i need more strength from God to face every challenge in life.. infact i think this is like the weakest point in my life..it's like accumulation of a few different issues..and i've been keeping it to myself..it's like putting them all in a balloon..and as days pass by, it's getting bigger..and rite now..im preventing it from bursting. so i prefer isolation.. isolate from sumthin im not comfortable with..or just isolation just because i feel comfortable doing that..hmm..i shouldnt get myself used to isolating myself from the world.lol..and im losing my appetite to eat! wow..im impressed myself..wat a great way to lose weight..hehe...it's not like i dont wanna eat..but im just not feeling hungry..yup..

someone is playing dress up! =D

hehehehe.. i'm supposed to pack my stuff for PD trip tomorrow =p while I was choosing what clothes to wear, I felt like playing dress up! =D hee.. i just realised that ive been buying a lot of dresses today... and wonder i if i would be a bit over-dress in some occasions =p hee.. i realised i have some pattern in the types of clothes i like. last time was anything stripe!! u name it..black, white, pink, red ,gree, yellow, grey.. i will have this instant urge to buy anything stripey last time =p but now.. it's DRESSES!! wowee... =p i'm evolving =p hehehe

owh owh owh.. my dad asked me to cut my hair =p he says i look like a granny with long hair =p erm erm erm.. i will do something to my hair =p hehehe... wait n see =p

lalala

I couldnt go back to sleep..aiyo..and i went down to get a few oranges..then decided to post sumthin in my bloggie since i am now feeling so fresh =p I've been longing to wear this dress when i go out, but im just waiting for the right time =p ok, i noe my room is superrrr messyy =p but im in the process of tidying it up =p hehe..

I feel like... singing and play dress up =p

I Just feel like announcing to the whole wide world that 'I HAVE A TWIN SISTER!' and i will be seeing her soon!! woweee...

And rite now my gorilla is chatting with me and is tired asking me to go to sleep =p cos he's scared i'll fall sick =p yay!and erm.. unfortunately i will be a bit grumpy when i dont get enough sleep =p hehehe... and i require 10 hours of sleep! haha =p

owh owh owh..guess what? just now i saw the exact same dress i bought on9.. and the boutique is selling it double the price =p im feeling sooo happy i bought it wayyy cheaperrr =D

that's all i guess.. nites everybody! =D i want a cat!

My dad's fav hobby is gardening =)

Ok, this orchid is actually much more beautiful in real life =) i lurve its vibrant colour and can u see the stem? it's TOO healthy, i think =p lol.. i can imagine those orchids are all smiling and singing ' i've got sunshine...on a cloudy day...' hehe =p im very imaginative, i tell ya =p my dad really takes care of all his plants =)