hmm..i miss miss misss....

rite now i'm missing so many people..my twin,jaja...my bestie,lala...and my gorilla, too...

sometimes i think it's unfair for me and my twin to be so far apart..i still remember at the airport..when they were sending me off.. when i hugged jaja good bye, we both started to shed tears..but i knew i had to stop it rite there and then, cos if not i would not stop crying.lol.saying goodbye is hard.. and now im rite back at home..somehow i feel lonely..i think rite after she studied in aussie, our paths have changed... imagine that we've been together since we were born..and same class in primary school, same high school,but then in college, i was in taylor's and she was in intec,,but i could still see her often..but now i just realised i will never have that opportunity to wake up late to school together again, getting stressed out together bcos exam is coming again..talking for hours when we were trying to do homework,but ended up sleeping..now i have to face it all alone..i dont think i wanna whine bout it, but im just hoping that i have enough courage and strength to cope everything..i noe things that don't kill you, will just make u stronger ...rite?not.all these things only make me cry even more n more.. they dont make me stronger!crying means im weak, rite?so i should stop.but its so hard to control..grr..omg i dont like to cry! grrrrrrrrrrrrr................

and my bestie,lala..hmm..jus now i was just checking when the shopaholic movie is gonna be released in msia.. and i've always imagined myself watching it with her.. another meowie that i can totally be myself with =) but lala ure not here nimore ;( i mishhh uuu... i cant watch the movie with u..waa... we always watch all those girlie mvie together2 rite? i rili do mish u sooooo much! ;(( i hope auckland is treating you good.. and im crying again now..omg..haha..nvm la.. i can cry as much as i want.then i will sleep , and then i will feel better..hehe..rite lala?rite?

and my gorilla is travelling around uk now.. hmm...i rili mish u too ;( take good care of urself there,k? cant wait for u to be back in august ...usually ure the one who listens to all my ramblings..or whatever eew feelings or those emo moments =p haha..sometimes i can be such a drama queen =p thank u so much for always being there =) u always make me feel there's nothing to worry about..and rite now, i dont know why i feel nervous that class is gonna start soon..but i promise myself i will work harder this time! pray for me..

i dont know why, i've been a bit moody today.and.yesterday.i want a cattttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt or koalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..no, i think i prefer catssssssssssssssssssssssssss.................................... y can't i have 1? ;( waaaaaaaaaaaa......... i dont mean to replace nuni, i just want a cat... cos i know the cat is gonna lurve me like how i lurve them=D i dont care. i wanna ask my parents to let me have a cat for my birthday. can i? i want laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............................................y do i feel like screaaaaammmmingggggggggggggggggggg?????????????i i should stop now cos i noe anything i write after this will not make sense..i know myself too well..grr..but sometimes i just dont understand myself at all?get what i mean?omg i should stop now.

Brisbane was all happiness =D

I was back from Brisbane 2 days ago .. It was really fun! I think it was 1 of the happiest moments in my life =) thanks to jaja,fazren,syikin,shikin's mum and zatil =) heee.. i really did have a blast there =) i will not hesitate to go there again!! =) hee...

okay, just now i made lunch for my parents and i.. i cooked macaroni soup! =) sedap woo =p hehe.. i put in tiny2 anchovies.. not the big2 one... cos the tiny2 ones taste nicer to me =p but i didnt take pics of it..grr.. and i put in a lot of veges.. i put in tomatos and sawi(wat is it called in english?) and the anchovies give a lot of taste to the soup.. but then i also put in a bit of sesame oil, soy sauce and a bit of tomato sauce.nyummy nyum! it's healthy! cos u only use a lil bit of oil to sautee the onion and the anchovies..and a bit of red chilli =)

ok,then i made chicken tomyam and steamed fish for dinner =p but i cooked them at 3 oclock..hehehe.. cos i promised my mum to cook dinner if i wanna go out with her tonite =p hehe.. ok, that one i didnt take pics also..grr..

BUT i did take pics of cupcakes! =p

Rosey Choco Chip Raisins Cupcakes!

I bought rose shaped mould from Aussie when i was there.. i lurve the rose shape!! =D

and these cupcakes were made using coconut oil! i didnt use butter or margarine..cos i wanted to find a healthier option =p hehe.. and i put in chocolate chips! and raisins! nyummy nyum! but then the cupcakes didnt raise up well as how it should be..maybe cos i used oil instead of butter or margarine..or maybe cos i stir the batter a bit too much =p hehe..but i like eating them anyway =p especially cos it has lotsa chocolate chips inside =p hehehe... and and and.. i have a weakness in baking.. i am super duper lazy to measure how much sugar,flour,or oil/margarine i need to use..instead i just poured them as anyhow i like =p weird huh? haha...thats y i like cooking better than baking..cos i am free to do anything i like.. =p but in baking, i think u just observe the thickness of the batter..if cookies, they will be thicker..but if cakes, they will be thinner =p but it is always wise to measure the ingredients =p i will, 1 day =p

here i come! =)

i will be visiting my twin sister in aussie tomorrow =) i'm sooo haaappyyy!! i noe she's the one i can always be myself with =) i think this is life.. there are ups and downs..and for some reason, i think nowadays the 'downs' always favour me..lol.. but i'm grateful with everything i'm blessed with =) although i realised i'm quite complex actually.. sometimes i dont even know why i feel ike how i feel.. hmm.. weird,huh?hehe.. i think it's just a matter of time..haha..i can't wait to see my twin sister tomorrow =) and my gorilla in august =) i will survive 2009 =) i will! bring it on... =p

it's not even mutual.lol.

i think i'm the only 1 hu has been imagining things..hahahaha... the cat doesn't like me actually.. i'm the one who thinks so...actually the cat meows and purrss to everyone..hahaha..a msg to the cat=eat a lot,sleep a lot and jump alot! hahaha..i miss my nuni ;(

dear gorilla, all the best in your exam! =) you can do it! chaiyok2!!
from,
your sleepyhead monkey

Alhamdulillah.. =D

I am haaapppy! =D I think I should've learned my lesson, and I shall be more hard working in my studies this year =) I can do it!!yay!! pls pls pls nana..i beg you to stay focus =) FOCUS! hehe.. I should try to force myself to study a bit everyday no matter how sleepy i am.. i tend to pamper myself too much!aiyo..hehehehe..and strictly no sleeping in class!!

I should think positive and exercise !! To keep myself healthy =) owh owh owh.. and fruit juice in the morning!! hmm..letme share my secret ingridient with the whole wide world =)
Nana's Fruit Juice= blend apple,banana,honey,water =p it's yummy!! u dont have to remove the fiber or anythin..just blend them without removing the fiber =) and erm.. the proportion of each fruit also matters...like the amount of apple,banana, honey and water you put.. that one u have to try it urself =p once u have tried a few times, then u noe the perfect balance of how much u need to put in =p OMG i am like sooo 'semangat' talking bout food =p hehehehe.. actually u can almost use any fruit =) u just have to match with the right fruit =p hehe.. and in then end everything will taste nice if u noe how to modify it a bit =p

I made dinner for my family just now.. but didnt take any piccies =p hehe.. nvm, next time i will =) I feel happy looking at people eating the food i cooked =D there's just so much lurve to it =p
im weird, i noe =p hehehehe..

I get to see my twin sister next week!! woo hooooo.... =D i can so imagine i am the giant version of my twin ;( waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... =p but then again, i lurve my fat too.. they'r egonna mish me, ya noe? =p

outing with my bestie =)

yesterday we went to sunway pyramid and watched the Bride Wars movie..it was awesome! just purrr-fect for a girl kinda movie..hee.. and i was wearing my pixie dress! =) hee..there we were, talking and talking..sharing our problems, eating chocolate waffle together...and continue talking at secret recipe.. thanks, bestie! =) im surely gonna mish you =(

things have been rough to me nowadays.. i need more strength from God to face every challenge in life.. infact i think this is like the weakest point in my life..it's like accumulation of a few different issues..and i've been keeping it to myself..it's like putting them all in a balloon..and as days pass by, it's getting bigger..and rite now..im preventing it from bursting. so i prefer isolation.. isolate from sumthin im not comfortable with..or just isolation just because i feel comfortable doing that..hmm..i shouldnt get myself used to isolating myself from the world.lol..and im losing my appetite to eat! wow..im impressed myself..wat a great way to lose weight..hehe...it's not like i dont wanna eat..but im just not feeling hungry..yup..