what does it do to your heart?cause it hurts.

i feel like singing.but somehow i just dont kow how anymore.there's no more feelings that i used to have whenever i felt like singing.if i can recall correctly, i just felt a bit more relaxed and calm whenever i sang last time. but now its just a feeling of hmm..i sound terrible! n i cant have that kind of feeling of erm..how do u say? to be a part of that song.hmm.. blah.i just dont know how to describe. the thing is, i just dont know how to sing anymore!get what i mean? but i know i can sing if my twin sister is beside me =p hehehee...

i just hope this is temporary.cos my mood has been like a rollercoaster these past few days.there are small things that shouldnt really affect me, but i end up crying.if there's 1 thing i can say to myself rite now,it would be...st-ew-peed... heh.a nicer way of spelling the real word.lol.

i need holidays.i think i am slowly getting to know the world.believe it or not, i've always felt like a kid.my perceptions, opinions and views are slowly changing.. does that mean im growin up?hee.. but i dont wanna be like a very serious looking adult.get what i mean? cos i think if im surrounded with soo much of serious serious stuff, i can get killed.it's called 'serious emotional accident'.HEHE. u never know what runs through my mind =p sometimes in the lecture hall, i can just imagine birds flying up at the ceiling.. and chirping =p ok fine. i need a hug.

--when the world goes round and round and round--

nope, i dont know what im thinking.yes.so i shall end it here.

i need my wings to fly =p

hehe..my gorilla is going back to india from london tomorrow =D wheee.. i have extra energy to kacau people!hehe..erm...i've been quite unpredictable today.lol.i dont even understand wats happening.oh myy... i hope my brain will function perfectly tomorrow. i think i need more brain neurons.. anybody wanna donate me some? haha.

i dont know what i should be writing rite now.owh i need to start studying hard!! waaaa..NANA! study laaaa......eeee...dush dush dush! =p
someone said i act like a cat today.lol.i noe it sounds weird, but im happy to hear dat.told ya. im an alien. nite people! meowww...

stomach oh stomach

hmmm... hmmm... what shall i write? im clueless... but 1 thing for sure, im not gonna activate the 'vain' mode today and put up my pic with my beloved clothes.lol.

owh yeah.. i dont know why.. but i've been having gastric for 3 days in a row..waaa...i dont like it...and its around the same time..5 pm.. that will be my medical history =p i shall write a complete 1 later =p lol.

erm erm erm.... i wish that i dont feel sleepy often.why am i always sleepy?grrrr....

but besides all those stuff, im kinda happy =) hehe..

'you can only be as happy, as how u allow yourself to be'

so, opt to be happy, people!! SMILE!!! =D

no matter who u are, where u are, there are people who think of you =)

i spent the whole day yesterday doing everything except studying. woke up today at 11, OMG-ing cos realised there's just too much to study... and then started studying, abit.planning to stay up late tonite, and be sleepy in class tomorrow, and start acting like a zombie in tutorial. wow. such an impressive planning. woweee....

went to friend's hostel today =D super friendly fwens!! hehe... i got to eat cookies, black pepper meat and scrambled egg with rice. =p chit chatting alot. and laughing and giggling most of the time =p hehe..lurve u people! =D

miss my twin.miss my bestie.miss my gorilla. waaa....

busy tiring week...and its only the 2nd week...

Ok, my pcl just now was kinda better than the previous one =p i could actually present without being cartoon-ish =p i hope..haha..but i think i have to make my voice firmer or tougher? so that hmm.. i sound a bit more serious =p lol.

waaa...my back hurts and my left calf too..actually i had a fall on the staircase 2-3 years back.. and i actually fell quite hard on the floor, but i fell sitting on the stairs.get what i mean?so i just sat there for a few minutes cos i was still shocked. so i was like slowly getting up... and yay! i could walk =p lol.. but then slowly after that...i realised certain movements were kinda painful.. and i think its at the sacral level.. and after dat i realised i have this pain around my calve and it's actually around the S2 dermatome.. waaaa...so in d lecture hall, i find it quite uncomfortable to sit for a long time.. and also to stand for a long time.. its such a great relief when i can lie down. hmm...hmm..hmm...i am not old yet to experience all these.waaa... but i dont think it's a slipped disc, no? cos im still young and my intervertebral disc hould be quite strong?waaa...maybe its just a muscle strain?maybe its a coincident that my calve just hurts bcos i walk too much?lol.dear sacrum,dear calf,please behave urself.

i think this weekend i should be more angelic and i should not waste my time like how i did last weekend. hmm.. hee..=p

i dont know why i feel sooooooooooo tired.........helppppp!
i sound like a granny >.<

i feel okay but at the same time i feel like crying ;(

i think im just tired.or exhausted.bluek bluek bluek.

dear anatomy,
please be nice to me.
im trying to make sense in everything u say, but apparently nothing seems to make sense in this little head of mine.
thank u.

dear someone,
i think less attention is given to a monkey.
>.<>

dear brain, please be more considerate. u dont need that much of sleep.

dear nana, please prioritise. get rid of unnecessary things in ur life. and stop wasting ur time. thank u.

dear world, please smile more often. thank u.

kaki saya sakit ;( macam ada orang makan. waaa...

i think im gonna wear this when i go to class tomorrow..

2nd day of the 2nd week of the 2nd month of the 2nd year of class =p

i need to take care of my heart.
waaaa....i should start taking care of it since i was young! i remember myself eating mc d's everyday when i was in form 2.. grrr.. now i hope there wont be so much visceral fat in my body ;( actually all those plaques can start depositing in ur body in ur first decade of life!

from nw on, i would exercise at least 3 times a week, atleast 45 mins every session =D yay!! i just hope i wont turn into a couch potato..like i always do =p
there's sumthin weird bout the way i eat.. i make sure that i dont eat so much of fried food.. use oilve oil in my cooking..not so much sugar in my tea...bla bla bla..to avoid the oil , sugar and stuff.. but i just surrender when i see chocolate ice blended!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............. and i ask them to put lotsa whipped cream too!! and thats like soooo fattening! and i drink it often! =( and it is sooooooooooooo sweettttttttttt....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

i need to keep it balanced! hmm.. i just saw a picture of someone's arteries with a very thick deposits of plaques... and it was soooo eeeww!i want to have healthy heart and blood vessels ;( i dont wanna undergo bypass surgery.. i dont want all those fatty2 stuff surrounding my heart.. hmm.. i guess this is effective. by showing people how eew ur organs can be if u dont maintain them.at least it works for me =p the thinner u are, doesnt mean ure fit! =p my lecturer said she has this patient which weighs around 125 kg, and her cholestrol level is even better than my lecturer's. and u have to be scared of visceral fat!! somehow my fat likes to accumulate around my thighs...eeeeewwww.....i wanna lose weight!and become healthier =D

and this is what i wore to class today..i didnt wear it with the cardigan cos i think i dont wanna hide the beautiful ruffles at the shoulder =p

there can be miracles....when u believe... =D

heh..its been quite a long time since i last heard that song by whitney houston and mariah carey.. i lurrve that song! =) and i actually like britney spears.. eventhough she is going through some rough times this past few years..but somehow(i seriously dont know why) she will get through it and become a better person! maybe even better than before =p eventhough i just see her on tv, and dont know much bout her.. heh.. i think she's just confused =p lol. oh myyy..why am i blogging bout her.. =p

in the afternoon i played chess with my dad..thich is a very rare occasion =p lol.. and as expected, i lost =p lol.. i kept on giggling while playing..i couldnt be serious! =p and i would scream when my pieces were being eaten.lol. ok, there were a few important comments from my dad:
1) every move u make, there should be a reason =p .
( he kept asking me what was the point when i made some useless move =p) and i answered, ' cos i wanna eat ur piece'
and my dad answered,' that's the only reason?' and i answered, 'yeah,kinda..=p'
2)u need to think more than that-think why ur opponent moved it there.. and think a few steps ahead why u wanna ur piece there.
he always said that i didnt think enough before deciding the best move.hmm...i get confused when i think too much! =p oh myyy.. i shoulddd think deeper...heeellllp!
3)u should develop all ur strong pieces first, before u decide to sacrifice them when u wanna eat ur opponent's piece.
i was like...'owh.. i never really thought bout that..waaaa... i think all i thought of was only to eat my opponent =p' oh myyy..
4)whenever possible, move ur pieces to the centre.not at the side or backward.
so i kinda learned that, even if u wanna safe ur piece from being eaten, move forward.. avoid going backward =p useful tip!
5)ur king can move everywhere... =p
haha..this is bcos he kept 'check-ing' me.. and i had to bring my king all over the world to safe him =p but eventhough king has only limited steps he can make, never underestimate its uses =p and i said' my king is too fat, he has to exercise..so i have to bring him jogging all over the chess board =p haha..

so, when i reflect all those things he said, u can kinda use those things in real life..?no? in certain situations la... =p and after playing chess, believe it or not, i started to feel fever-ish =p my brain is pampered too much!!i only used it to think a bit oso, become very tired already =p lol!

LDR with my bestie!! =D

hehe..jus now we saw each other on webcam!! =p haha.. u kept saying i look like a smiling mickey mouse!!!!??! =p =p =p oh my.. now im a mickey mouse? =p hahahaha..... glad to find ure happy there =p i think i noe the main reason =p ehem ehem =p hahahah... as long as ure happy! =D we study hard now kay? then we see each other in brisbane at the end of this year!!! wheee... cant wait!! the meowies reunited!! jaja and lala havent seen each other for a loong time!!! oh my.. im gonna meet my meowies!! cant wait cant wait!!
dont worry, lala...ur shopping addiction is purrrrrfectly normal!! =D ure not alone! =p heee... we meowies help the world in our own way by shopping(one of the ways)!!!! hehehe.. =p
just bcos im soo happy, i will play dress up again!! but im getting fatter!hellpp!

i need more chocolatesssss.....>.<

i actually dont know what to write..weird...i always have sumthin to write...hmm..i went to the supermarket just now..and i didnt buy enough chocos.waaa...they are all gone..in my stomach.hmmm.i want choco ice blended!guess wat? i just feel like flying off to brisbane rite now.even for 2 days.nonono i cant.where got money for the ticket la =p haha....ok, i shall wait for the end of the year.i will spend most of time with my twinnie and my bestie, lala!! =D we plan to go there togeder aite?hehe... owh my gorilla will be back in august for good =D hehe.yay ness.

what else eh?i think i have been bored and boring too =p lol. its weird but this past few days i've been thinking about things that i din really bother to think about before.i am actually gonna turn 21 years old this april.*promote2 bday!! nak bday present!* =p and 21 sounds erm.. like a twenty one. do u get what i mean? i dont think i sound old. but not that young too. i finished my spm when i was 17. and this year im 21??!!? oh my, time flies like a superman. and when i graduate, i will be 24 years old... like 24? then 25,then 26....27..bla bla bla...and the list goes on. its like i noe, im 20 turning 21, but i always felt like i am still in my teen years. u noe what i mean? this 20, 21,22 figure dont really change me much =p lol. i dont know weder its a good thing.lol.
ok, lemme list up how i see myself in 5 years time:
when im 25,OMG! i cant imagine myself at 25! ok, ok, focus..
i think its too early to think what will happen in 5 years =p i shall think about it later =p hahahaha..

somehow i like smiles =D it's so precious and wow-ness! i like people who smile.i mean like a sincere smile. hehe. i hope i do smile often to the world =) hehe. guess what?i have stomach ache =( i just had gastric yesterday and now what im feeling is definitely not gastric. which is very weird. hmm..i just wanna i lurve everyone in my life =) i dont know why, suddenly i miss miss miss people and aliens. i think its true what they say, 'people come and go in ur life. but they do make a difference in ur life in some way =D'

good nite,everyone.lurve everyone!=D

i am a monkey jumping up and down disturbing ppl's sweet dreams and steal their bananas at nite

dont they know that i know that they know that i dont know about the things they know? i hate presentations! i actually have heart palpitation everytime i have to present. and i will speak very fast that no one could understand properly.so whats the point of me presenting?arrrggghh... just to let u noe, i will be sick-ish next friday.and i cant present.i wish!

there are times, well countless times, when i feel stupid. somehow i feel its normal already nowadays. oh myy.. i feel normal. its not a good sign. SELF DIRECTED LEARNING! i need to direct myself, my head, my brain, to think of the things that i should think of. i lurve to be spoonfed. oh my.my my my.now there is no more spoon.whats left is only my occasionally functioning brain to work.

shh! rite. 2 posts in 1 nite. that shows i have too much time. NOT! owh well. im just gonna keep myself awake by playing dress up and start studying abit after dat. oh my! did i just say study? clap clap!! im so proud of nana!! whhee heee... =D

Owh,this butterfly is used as decoration in my room =D i just lurve butterflies.dont u?hehe.. i have many clothes, but i dont really buy branded ones ya noe.. i buy my clothes at a very reasonable price =) and maybe there's a few a bit expensive ones.. but mostly are kinda reasonable or cheap. in all these pics, none of my pants or top is above RM30 =p i think u dont have to spend so much of money to buy good clothes and to look comel =p u just have to mix and match like how u want it to be! =D but then again, i buy too many clothes that when i think back, eventhough each piece dont cost that much, but when i added up the total sum it's kinda a lot >.< darlings ="p">

yawn yawn yawn

i am sleeeepppyy.......................
is it weird that i think im weird?
somehow my eyes are closing and i havent brushed my teeth yet.
i need to brush my teeth first at least.
but im too lazy... i would rather sit on the bed typing sumthin rather than to walk to the toilet and brush my teeth.
oh myy...
pls wake me up!
i need a slap!
ouch!
that hurts!
grrrrr!

Lurve Quotes

One word frees us Of all the weight and pain in life, That word is Love .

Once in awhile, Right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale.

Only love lets us see normal things In an extraordinary way.

Hearts are not to be had as a gift Hearts are to be earned...

A heart that loves is always young.

What the heart gives away is never gone ... It is kept in the hearts of others.

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.

The night has a thousand eyes, And the day but one; Yet the light of the bright world dies, With the dying sun. The mind has a thousand eyes, And the heart but one; Yet the light of a whole life dies, When love is done.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, While loving someone deeply gives you courage.

In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.

Just because someone doesn't love you in the way you want them to, doesn't mean that they don't love you with all they've got.

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same.

~i have no idea why i searched for lurve quotes.just for fun!

bluek

how lame can i be? guess y i am blogging rite now? cos the ppl who i feel like talking to are bz...waaa....but dats okay.i can still fill my time listening to doraemon song(curently) and being in denial that i dont have any school work to do.

i am curious.about a few stuff.today. they are:

3)i am such a SLOW anatomy learner.i slept at 3 last nite jus to finish up my anat task. and guess wat? i don think i got much out of it.
4)i dont feel like doing anything rite now.
5)tried to sleep, but cudnt.how sad is that?
6)planning to wake up later to finish up my work.why dont i just finish it up now?i wonder.owh,bcos i am an eeeew person.d-uhhh!
7)craving for black forrest chocolate ice blended.thats a proof! i just drank it yesterday and i want it again today
8)somehow i feel like hiding.

Year 2 =)

hee... somehow i feel happy today , and yesterday..unlike the first few days when i was in YEar 1 last year, i was terrified!! haha..actually i was kinda terrified till class ended last year..i cant really remember why...lol.. but this year i think those small things that did bother me last year dont really bother me nimore this year =D clap clap!! hehe.. and im actually looking forward to do my homeowrk later(rite after my blog =p) this is almost impossible last year..hehe..i hope i will be improving throughout the whole year! =) pray for me! =p

but..... just now i went to the gym with my mum..and i kinda walk on the threadmill..ok, i din feel like running..hehe.. and soon after dat, i bought 'black forrest' chocolate ice blended! omg it was soooo sedap!! and that just defeats the purpose of me going to the gym!! eeww.. and this has happened twice, so far..in a week!! last sunday... i did my walking stuff in the gym wit my mum.. and after dat i went to the coffee bean and ordered 'the ultimate' choclate ice blended!! omg omg.. im gonna gain weight if i continue doing this..grr.. i have no idea why tasting those chocolates are kinda addictive! are u sure chocolate is not listed as one of those drugs?lol..cos to me, it IS addictive!!!! helpppppppppppppppppppppppppp....

owh, i think i made a fool out of myself in my tutorial grp..listen to this conversation:

my lecturer: ok, in ortopnoea(shortness of breath when u lie flat), u have to assess the degree of severity by asking the patient how many pillows they feel comfortable sleeping on.. if they need more pillows, then it means it's more severe. Ok, so what question do u ask the patient, next?

me: ask the patients how thick is 1 pillow to them..(with this serious look on my face)

my lecturer:(stared at me for a few seconds..i think to make sure that i was not making a joke) and finally laughed a bit.. she said'hmm... i never thought of that.i guess i shud ask =p)

my whole group: (smiled, and trying not to laugh)

GREAT!!! i am a SUPERB clown-ish student =p well, it took me quite a long time why my question was kinda funny. or maybe not. hmm.. i am still confused actually. why is that so pelik? is it dat pelik? owh, that was not the only thing i answered that got the same kinda reaction. it just happens that my brain asks weird2 or unnecessary question.hmmm..HHMMM.....
HELPPP!!!! i need to be a bit more normaaallllllllllllllll....aaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....................

class is gonna start tomorrow!

i have finally tidied up my room! which is like 1 nite before class starts..omg..procrastination IS the thief of time..grr...but looking at the bright side, at least i did clean up my room =p
ok, rite now im wondering which clothes to wear tomorrow, wat colour would be good on the first day of class.. and i wonder wether the lecture hall will be freezing like last yer's..shud i bring my pashmina?no no no.. everytime i wrap myself around the pashmina, i would be snoozing..hmm.. which bag to use?the cat bag? the stripey bag?the colourful polkadots?omg..im in dilemma!hmm..i think i will use the stripey bag..

i need to start saving money!! i have been shopping like crazzzyyyy.. my craze is only clothes. yup. and chocolate iceblended.or chocolates.but im scared cos i've been buying too many clothes!hehe...but i rili do lurve clothes! i feel sooo happy when i buy them =p jus now i couldnt figure out which colour was nicer, and i ended up buying both...same piece, just diff colours. rite now i do admit i am a shopaholic! and it only took me 5 mins to decide that i should take both>.< i shud behave myself! i should get scolded! i did get scolded..hmm..somehow my brain always says yes to clothes...and my heart says yes too..so it feels so right =p hahaha..

i i just realised my room is so pink! the wall, the curtain,almost all of my clothes hanging on the rack,my comforter,my camera...omg...somehow it freaks me out when i realise i'm turning into a girlie girl. nononononono...at least i play some sports.and although i like to cook,its purely bcos i like to eat and i like looking at people eating the food i cook.its like play time!cooking is like playing..hehe. and i rili dont like the idea that some ppl think girls have to learn to cook just because they are girls.eew..its not like our job or sumthin..rite?yay!im not a girlie girl!hehe...did i ever mention that i dont like the colour blue?hehehe..sorry,gorilla! =p turqoise is nice...but other blue shades dont rili get my attention =p but i do like bright colours though =p i think i prefer warm colours..

hmm..wat else?somehow i feel like talking!i still remember last time my twin and i will talk for hours at nite before we decide that we're sleepy and shouldgo to bed =p haha.. owh and my bestie too!!lala!! remember those nites?we would be on the phone for hours! =p hahaha..and then stop halfway to brush our teeth just incase we get too sleepy later on =p i miss those dayssssssssss....and my gorilla too! we would be chatting..and u would have to force me to sleep =p haha..and u will make sure i pray before i sleep =D u make me feel like a little girl =p haha...

guess wat?there's ist enough space for my clothes...i knoe, u must be wondering..3 wardrobes!! and i still dont have enough space??!! but seriously, all those clothes have their own uses.. they are unique in their own way..i lurrrvvve allll my clothes! =D

nana, good luck on ur first day of Year 2 tomorrow!! from, salina =D
(somehow the name salina makes me feel being a bit more serious, and 'nana' makes me feel like playing and having fun =p)