no lurve for negative thoughts,pimples, melted plastic container and homeworks

that just kinda summed up what i have in mind.
and just for a second just now, i thought if i had not controlled myself, i would be INSANE.
it's like the threshold thingy, limited myself to bcome annoyed at sumthin or anythin just below the threshold level. If i crossed that level, i wouldnt be writing this. Instead i will go hysterical.
LOL. it's amazing of how 'eewww' i have become in these attempts of improving myself ALOT.
I seriously think im not in a goood mental health state. Should avoid me. As the monster within is on the surface. BEWARE. Bluekkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hhahahha.....and now im laughing. now i seriously am insane.