I have decided that I should keep my blog alive so that I would be able to recall some precious memories some day..
And also because i think writing makes me sane sometimes.
Just one of the ways for me to express myself =)
Firstly, I would like to think that I have become a bit matured at least, even by 0.001% =p haha.. I changed the layout and colour of this blog. Sorry for those people who had some difficulty reading my super colourful blog before. And I also have started thinking about my future in a more sensible way. I used to dream of my future too, it's kinda the same with my current dreams, just that I allow myself to give enough spaces to include some of the possibilities that might happen. I shall not say i'm becoming pessimistic, just maybe becoming a bit more sensible? Maybe because somehow I've learned that a lot of my disappointments mainly come from my own expectations. So, if I have expected some not-so-good events to happen, when it does happen, I would me more calm and relaxed? I hope so.
Secondly, even now my brain doesn't come out with weird random words and things that I used to think of last time. Looking back at my previous posts, there were chicken in one sentence, and cat and meow and purr and haiyak in the whole next sentence =p Maybe I have somehow shifted myself from a fairytale i created for myself to finally, the real world. I don't know whether it's good or bad. Or am i becoming a bit boring. I hope not. Let's just say this is part of me growing up.
Thirdly, I would like to list some of what Mr. Bf has mentioned about me so far =p :
1) I get grumpy when I'm sleepy and I get hyper when I'm happy =p (he always says that i react like a baby =p, which i will take as a compliment =p hahaha... at least im 'awet muda' rite? =p *perasan*)
2) I will talk non stop if I'm talking about something that I find interesting, or I would just mumble something that he can't even understand if I'm talking about something that i don't really like / not sure of =p
3) I'm very garang nowadays.. =( (im not sure is it bcos of the stress, or the unstable hormones, or im just getting meaner =( ) waa.... i think i realise this a bit as i become a lil impatient sometimes..*sigh*
4) I tend to scream on the phone if I wanna throw tantrums, and it hurts his ears =p he says that the pitch is too high and it is tiring to listen to them =p) hahaha..
5) He says he knows me very well.. (hmm.. not really actually =p hahaha.. i dont wanna be that predictable, boringla.. =p but i have to agree partially, since he knows me well after my twin and parents =) basically i always inform him when i don't feel so good or maybe when im too excited about something =p
i cant really remember what else.. but im very sure there's more..=p we've been together for almost 3 years +.. i can say that he has been a very understanding person, and he has never really been mad at me (as long as i can remember) =)..waa... i feel so guilty that i have merajuk with him for so many rillion times ;( i'm sorry, but it just so happens that emotions are a big part of me =p i will try my best to reduce the level of merajukness =D
ok, thats all for tonite..its 3.30 am in the morning =) i should get my sleep.hehe..
nana chan... miss you... whether we realize it or not, ppl tend to change. and that includes me and you. im also scared if i change to a mean or bad person. i just hope not.. but watever it is, i would want myself to be more positive and stop worrying unnecessarily.. but of cos i need to always remind myself not to forget Him. cos yeah, sometimes i tend to get carried away with the world. but watever it is, always have faith in ourselves. there's a hero in each one of us :)
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