why is it so hard for me to detach myself from the stuff that can only hurt me, that i shudnt even bother to think about?
why does it take a whole lot more to convince me nowadays?
why do i have so many doubts about it?
why do i find things which were fine before, but becoming odd and weird nowadays?
why do i feel i dont understand about it enough yet to conclude anything out of it yet?
why do i feel this way?
things dont become as how they are overnight. it takes a whole lot more time.
is the situation really changing? or is it me that is changing?
Hi Nana!
ReplyDeleteFirst, I think this is long overdue, *HUUUGS!*
I'm not sure what's bothering you, and I'm not sure what I can do to make it better, but I guess you can find comfort in knowing that things happen for a reason, and sometimes we get overwhelmed and we get a bit stuck in some sort of corner and we can't figure out how we ended up there in the first place...
so it's important that we step back, take a good look around, and sort of sort ourselves out, you know what I mean? Take a break, do something you like (like play dress up hehe and go shopping yay!) take time for yourself and maybe things will come to you clearer, things you haven't seen before :)
It also helps to talk to someone about it, and maybe they can point out something you missed before :)
Hope you're doing goodie. Take care!
Lots of love, Mazzy
i'm baaaaccckkkk!!! =p =p
ReplyDeletei think kan, nana, that we're both going through some hard times, though maybe for each of us it is a different thing, affecting us in a different way. regardless, i can somewhat empathise with the difficulty in trying to stop thinking about something that doesn't make sense thinking about (because you only get hurt doing it). im sorry to say that i can't give a three-steps solution ke apa to try and get over it, because i struggled myself with trying to do that, and eventually only began being able to detach myself simply because of sheer exhaustion - dah penat sangat risau, fikir, bersedih. it is not the most effective of ways to get rid of this, and so the problem keeps coming back in like cyclic periods. but what i'm trying to say is that it helps, nana, to have determination, and i think you can do it - kadang2 we may not get what we want, but it is important that we strive to get it. i tink i'm still struggling with my happy-thought experiment, but i think so long as i have that semangat to go on, i think i am assured at least that i haven't given up and am not hopeless. we try, and kita berserah, maybe even this whole experience of our struggle with trying to let go of old, hurtful things is a lesson that God wants us to learn from, wallahualam. tapi semua ada hikmahnya =)
when you get the chance, try to get out of the cocoon of being stuck in the same sort of place, like go somewhere you don't usually go. i went back home for a bit last week, yup in malaysia, and i think it really helped - maybe it didn't solve my problems, but it gave me a fresh new perspective to look at my problems, and i think it helped to know that that were other things in life, good things, that were as big, if not bigger, than that problem of mine.
i hope my long-drawn rambling is of some help. i pray that you're doing well, and good luck with the new semester! =)
jap i think i had actually answered one question =p on the other issues: i think, we all of us, go through a period in our lives where things really get out of hand, where we start to question things and see changes around us, changes in how we see things. ive known more than one person who has had to go through this long-drawn thinking period, and i think you and me are right now in our own such periods, trying to figure things out. it's bad and probably something we dont really want to happen, but remember that in it is always something for us to learn from, and the whole experience is a learning process.
ReplyDeleteok? =)
^^ whoa. those are helpful to me pulak... Thanks.
ReplyDeleteNanachan dearie, please update! :)
Luv you, bestie! :)
Nana, I've got something that might cheer you up - go to my blog, boleh main TAAAGGGGG!!! (It'll be your first on this blog, wouldn't it? =D)
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ReplyDeletehehe..thanks for the comments!!
however, im not in the stable mood to reply comments properly.. so dis is a short one.. will do it properly soon =)
thanks alot!!